It’s that time of year. We sit in reflection of the year gone by. We imagine ways to shape the year to come. We shine a light on our own beings with the innocence and wide eyes of our own child selves. We make resolutions. We are resolute ~ “admirably purposeful, determined, and unwavering.” The days are waxing. The light is increasing. And in this moment everything feels so . . . hopeful. Our intentions are so very, very pure.
But what happens next month, or next week, or tomorrow, or even (as a friend of mine experienced) 11 hours later (8 of which were sleeping) ~ after defining our new selves so admirably, so purposefully, so determinedly, so unwaveringly ~ what happens when . . . *gulp* . . . we fail? How do we meet our own precious humanness? Is there shame? Anger? Disappointment? Self-aggression? Or is there possibly, even in the midst of a swirl of negativity, is there the sweet, tiny voice of compassion? Is there a whisper of our basic human goodness? A reminder that we weren’t really all that broken to begin with? A remembering that even with all of the _______ that we wish we weren’t, and even without all of the _______ that we wish we were, that we are still and always inherently lovable? Is there . . . ? Maybe . . . ? And how can you tune into the light that is already in you ~ the one that requires no resolutions to shine ~ the one that your child self lived unabashedly, unwaveringly, without resolutions ~ how can you tune into that place of inner brightness and find out?